Christina: 05/15/20

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I guess I can't trust my friends and family?

Is this...

...something new?

What a disgrace!

Why all is Germany so mean to me?

Being Bossy

Do you like when Europeans never get to the good stuff but act like you aren't familiar with their ways in your own culture in important ways?...

Leading in Music

Funny the conductor can't easily see the 1st violinist, at least in some situations. I follow the leader and wind up on top.

More?

Am I ready to move to the next step?

I'm prestigious.

It's very sad to see other good people accepted and not me because of racism, now, like in Europe.

All the Stuff

It must be exciting to be a Late Boomer.

Watching a Movie

I'm watching Home on the Range (2004) by Disney.

The whole thing is extremely funny, pretty much.

Some characters like this flashed before me for awhile.

(credit)

"I don't have to listen."

People are mad if I was to get something they don't, but Late Boomers won't shut up.

Problems

Some people like to make problems come up, things they disagree with to come out.

"What matters?"

So, it doesn't matter if I'm all that in some way but does if others are and have been treated better out of luck partly?

"Who's turn is it?"

It's a Late Boomer's turn? We never had a turn.

Being the Baby

Do people make up silly rules because they aren't as smart as others?

Feel Like They're Something

I see the Polish musicians are more spoiled by their teachers than when I had a Polish violin teacher.

Making Music Along With Others

When 1st violinists have solos, it's not that big a deal because they are usually not heard.

Baby Germany

Germany can't hold their own but think Poland is low in altitude, Russia is too far away anyway, and the Swiss Alps are too far south.

Well, excuse me!

Attractive Young People

You might see attractive young people, but they are my peers and not my parents.

I figured out the problem.

People make it seem like I succumbed or something, but I have to think louder to get it to go away.

My Life Schedule

Aren't I supposed to be a person and not a stay at home mom?

How She Can Prove Herself to Others

Maybe, she will always not be as happy as she wants for now, but that's all that counts and I don't get anything.

Attention-Getting

It seems it's important for the older lady I like to get attention from the whole world and me no one, at least not her. I just noticed and thought it was funny.

First Violinists

People don't seem to question young first violinists for acting so quirky etc. about how special and good they are, seems racist.

Why?

I'm well aware that concert masters / 1st violinists teach the orchestra sometimes like a conductor. Why?

Bad Teachers

Teachers don't pave the way into glory.

Why Americans Are Encouraged Over Piano

Americans are encouraged to play solo instruments, but the orchestra itself is so hard to get into how would they all ever amount to anything? like a soloist. I did a research project or so on this.